gold to you

“it’s going to kill me to leave you,” eliott whispers.

“it’s going to kill me to watch you go,” lucas answers.

or: when eliott moves away, a piece of lucas’ heart goes missing. two years later, it comes back. (something’s still missing, though.)

so i finally finished chapter 4!!!! took a solid ten month hiatus from writing in the process, but my mental health is slowly on the up and up and i’m getting back into writing again. v excited to share this with y’all ♥♥♥

(read on ao3) (chapter one; chapter two; chapter three)

chapter four: does your heart still remember my name?

Lucas finishes out the day spending as little time in his bedroom as possible. He cooks dinner with Manon, taking on more chef duties than normal (and frankly more than his cooking skills allow) and even offers to do the dishes after they eat. He takes advantage of Mika’s sleep-till-sunset tendencies and claims the television as his own, only to put on some action movie he has zero interest in and switch to another film 15 minutes later. And, when boredom is at an all-time high, he even pulls out one of his textbooks to get a head start on this week’s reading. The semester hasn’t even begun yet and he’s already tackling the syllabus. (He snaps a photo of his little work setup and sends it to his mom. She responds with a Bible verse and he gets a little worried, but she follows it up with a good luck wish and a reminder that she’s proud of him. He smiles.)

It’s busy, but it’s a bored busy. A bland, meaningless string of tasks to complete and check off the list that’s supposed to get him closer to feeling good and feeling whole and moving on.

And, for a minute, they work.

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femalestunning:

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rileykeough: ❤️

tordenvejr:

you’ve carried fear for so long you’ve forgotten what you feel like without it. find out

beaft:

trying to organise plans in your mid 20s feels like trying to arrange a political summit during a civil war

sharpesjoy:

2.02 | 2.22

charlie-hunnam:

Be nice to each other, be kind to each other, be kind to yourself, love yourself. I love you all so much for being here with me. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Please get home safe. I love you, take care. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.

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skoople:

pad nation will always stand strong against the sharp tongue of tampon warriors

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cali-cocaine:

this is good

I’d just like to add, see how they behave when they’re angry/frustrated/exhausted, and if you see something that concerns you, wait until they’re calm, and then talk to them about it.

My husband used to yell when he got frustrated, but after I explained to him that I found it upsetting, he stopped yelling and started consciously working on asking for help before he got to that level of frustration.

When I’m upset over something, or just in a bad mood, I tend to withdraw. My husband explained to me that it makes him feel like I’m mad at him, so now when I need some space, I’ll tell him what I’m upset about, or that I’m in a bad mood for no particular reason, and I need to be alone for a little while.

See your friends and partners at their worst, but don’t assume that their worst is immutable. If someone loves and cares about you, they’ll try to accommodate you to the best of their ability.

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This is the best advice I’ve ever seen on this site, and it is so important. Communication is everything, and is 80% of the reason my husband and I have such a healthy, strong, and supportive relationship.

Anonymous asked:

I'm totally in support of the writers in theory but I'm trying to understand more of what you're fighting for because I've seen some people on twitter claim writers make more money a week than most of us make in a month so I'm trying to understand what the issue is. Also if that info is accurate. This is a genuine question. Not trying to have a "gotcha moment". I really want to hear from a writer.

fratboykate:

people have always had wild misconceptions about how much a writer earns because of their lack of understanding of how the industry actually works. there’s so many posts about how “you guys make 5k a week. what more do you want?!” yeah…let’s do some math on that.

5k a week for 14 weeks (and that’s a long room. a lot of rooms these days are 8-10 weeks. those are the dreaded mini-rooms we’re trying to kill) is $70,000. for roughly three months of work. you’d think we’re cooking with gas…BUT HOLD UP. that’s gross! let’s see everything that has to come out of that check:

  • 10% to our agent
  • 10% to our manager
  • 5% to our entertainment attorney
  • 5% to our business manager (not everyone has one but a lot of us do. i do, so that’s literally 30% immediately off the top of every check)
  • most of these breakdowns ive seen downplay taxes severely. someone made one that says writers pay 5% in taxes and i would like to ask them “in what universe?”. that doesn’t even cover state taxes. the way taxes work in the industry is really complicated, but the short of it is most of us have companies for tax reasons so we aren’t taxed like people on w2s/1099. if we did we’d be even more fucked. basically every production hires a writer’s company instead of the writer as an individual. so they engage our companies for our services and then at the end of the year we (the company) pay taxes as corporations or llcs (depending on what the writer chose to go with). my company is registered as a “corporation” so let’s go with those rates. california’s corporate rate is 9% and the federal corporate tax rate is 21%. there’s other expenses with running a business like fees and other shit so my business managers/accountants/bookkeepers have recommended i save between 35-40% of everything i make for when tax season comes.

you see where the math is at already??? 25-30% in commissions and then 35-40% in taxes. on the lower end you’re at THE VERY LEAST looking at 60% of that check gone. 70% worst case scenario. suddenly those $70,000 people claim we make are actually down to $28,000 as the take home pay. and that’s if you’re only losing 60%. it goes down to $21,000 if it’s 70%.

lets pretend you worked a long 14 week room (that’s the longest room ive ever worked btw) and let’s also be generous and say you only have 60% in expenses so the take home is $28,000. average rent in los angeles is around $2,800-$3,000. if you’re paying $2,800 in rent that means you need AT LEAST $4,000 a month to have a semi decent life since you need to also cover groceries, gas, medical expenses, toiletries, phone, internet, utilities, rental and car insurances, car payments, student loan payments, etc etc etc. and again, this is los angeles. everything is more expensive so you’re living BARE BONES on 4k. and these are numbers as a single person. im not even taking having children into account. so those $28,000 you take home might cover your life for 6-7 months. 3 of which you’re in the room working. the reality is that once that room ends, you might not work in a room again for 6-9-12 months (i have friends whose last jobs were over 18 months ago) and you now only have about 3 months left of savings to hold you over. we have to make that money stretch while we do all the endless free development we do for studios and until we get our next paying job. so…3 months left of enough money to cover your expenses -> possible 9 months of not having a job. this is how writers end up on food stamps or applying to work at target.

this is why we’re fighting for better rates and better residuals. residuals were a thing writers used to rely on to get them through the unemployment periods. residual checks have gone down from 20k to $0.03 cents. im not joking.

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they’ve decimated our regular pay and then destroyed residuals. we have nothing left. so don’t believe it when they tell you writers are being greedy. writers are simply fighting to be able to make a middle class living. we’re not asking them to become poor for our sake. we’re asking for raises that amount to 2% of their profit. TWO PERCENT. this is a fight for writing even being a career in five years instead of something you do on the side while you work retail to pay your bills. if you think shows are bad now imagine when your writer has to do it as a hobby because they need a real job to pay their bills and support a family. (which none of us can currently afford to have btw)

support writers. stop being bootlickers for billion dollar corporations. stop caring about fictional people more than you care about the real people that write them. if we don’t win this fight it truly is game over. the industry as you know it is gone.

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